i've been waking up to a perpetual rain cloud o'er my head for the past weeks. nearly a month. perhaps even longer than that. hope the storms gets by soon. can't stand it. to be welcomed by gloom is not the best thing out there and definitely not what i hoped for.

around 1/3 of my daily life is dedicated to work.
that leaves me 1/3 for sleeping.
1/12 wasted on transport with brains left aside to stone.
1/12 to personal grooming like bathing and eating and what nots.

i have less than 4 hrs each day to do what i need to do with my own free time.
which is grossly insufficient. = =

i have my DVDs, animes, comics, knitting, novels etc all stacked up aside screaming for me to pay attention to them but i can't. gotta shelve everything aside to concentrate on work and homework. crap. i'm a sucker with a obsessive need to find time for myself. if that territory is invaded, i become highly insecure. i become mentally unstable. i go bonkers. and u can pretty damn well see it all over my face if u pay attention.

i occasionally lapse into thinking that studying part-time while working is not such a gd idea after all. it's tough to keep up with it. but how else to get that piece of paper? (even if u're tempted to tell me what we get out of it is ultimately more fulfilling.) yes yes, i agree but let's face the facts. it's that piece of ppr and the grades written on it. if it's just abt passing, i guess i would've had an easier time. just submit my work and make sure i pass. but that's not what I want. what I do I must try to excel. Guess I'm the one putting myself to a slow death.

work-wise. well. what can i say. the usuals. ok maybe not so usual. there has been some changes. some i'm happy with, a particular one that's a pain in my ass and guess who stuck that thorn in it.